Naluri ibu..

Lambat lagi nak balik kerja. Lambat lagi nak jumpa Aiyris Zarra. Sangat rindu pada anak saya yang seorang itu.

Jadi, bila dah rindu ni, mula la kerja jadi slow. Mula lah tengok-tengok gambar Aiyris kat handphone. Mula lah tengok jam pukul berapa. Haii..lambat lagi lah nak balik.

I am a working-on- the-move mommy. Sebagai seorang yang bekerjaya, rasa sangat bersalah bila saya habiskan waktu untuk kerja dan luangkan masa sedikit sahaja untuk anak. Dan memang rasa bersalah bila tiba waktu menghantar Aiyris kepada jagaan pengasuh. Rasa bersalah bila serahkan Aiyris yang tadi enak tidur dalam dakapan saya dalam perjalanan ke tempat kerja (yes, Aiyris travel everyday with me, that why i am on the move mommy) kepada pelukan 'bibik' pula.

Dan memang la rasa cemburu bila Aiyris yang bila bibik dia agah sekejap, Aiyris dan ketawa mengekek-ngekek.

Ya Allah. Saya sayang benar kepada Aiyris Zarra. Lindungilah dia dariapada sebarang keburukan dan kecelakaan. Amiin..

Dan naluri seorang ibu mula marah dan sedih bila membaca ini . Kenapa ada seorang manusia bernama bapa sanggup buat perlakuan terkutuk itu kepada bayinya, i mean, the baby was just 5 months old dan apa lah yang dia tahu? 5 bulan...!

Sedih dan geram. Saya menarik nafas panjang bila membaca berita seperti itu. Nauzubillahhiminzalik..

Aku manusia lemah

Aku manusia lemah
Selalu terjatuh
Berbeda aku darimu
Kau berdiri teguh
Aku serba tiada
Aku kekurangan
Dan bila kau tiba aku hilang dari kewujudan

Sempurnanya sifatmu
Telusnya hatimu
Jujurnya niatmu
Tingginya kesabaranmu
Lepaskanlah diriku
Kerna aku
tak mampu tuk menanggung sebuah cinta sempurna
Darimu
Darimu ohhh
Darimu ohhhh

Bukan aku tak pernah
Mengerti dirimu
ku sanjung setiap kata cinta kau berikan aku
Hilangkan rasa itu
Akhirkankan semua
Dan bila kau sedar
Aku hilang dari kewujudan
Ohhh

Sempurnanya sifatmu
Telusnya hatimu
Jujurnya niatmu
Tingginya kesabaranmu
Lepaskanlah diriku
Kerna aku
Tak mampu tuk menanggung sebuah cinta sempurna darimu
Darimu ohhh
Darimu ohhhh

Chauvinism?

Aku perempuan.

So what? aku tak boleh nak buat kerja kat ladang bawak terik matahari? Ada aku takut tangan aku kasar ke hape? Kulit aku terbakar ada ke aku kesah?

TAK ADA.

So give me the job task or wtf whatever. Just GIVE IT TO ME. I can handle it. Dont just go and discriminate me just because i am a perempuan, wear a baju kurung and tudung and pakai kasut kerani. What is wrong with you? Still live in the ice age or what?

Geram la wey, proposal aku dah banyak kali kena reject, padahal ikut dah tajuk yang dia bagi sume. Bila aku nak anta ni? sume orang dah hanta dah.

Semalaman aku "hang". Macam komputer yang pentium II tu nak upload movie. susah-susah sangat, aku doa je. abes cite.

Saja je

Lets the pics do the talkin k?

Lama dah tak upload and update gambar Aiyris. Gambar tu masa dia naik buai sebulan yang lepas.

About the bisnes, im workin on it guys, setakat ni dah ada yang interested. nanti i will upload the pics, skang tgh nego dgn dia punya sole distributer.

chao! salam..

Perubahan hidup.

Business in progress.

Coming soon near you.

15

You take a deep breath and you walk through the doors
It’s the morning of your very first day
You say hi to your friends you ain’t seen in a while
Try and stay out of everybody’s way

It’s your freshman year and you’re gonna be here
For the next four years in this town
Hoping one of those senior boys will wink at you and say
You know I haven’t seen you around
Before

Cause when you’re fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You’re gonna believe them
And when you’re fifteen
Feeling like there’s nothing to figure out
Well count to ten, take it in
This is life before you know who you’re gonna be
Fifteen

You sit in class next to a redhead named Abigail
And soon enough you’re best friends
Laughing at the other girls who think they’re so cool
We’ll be out of here as soon as we can

And then you’re on your very first date and he’s got a car
And you’re feeling like flying
And you’re momma’s waiting up and you’re thinking he’s the one
And you’re dancing round your room when the night ends
When the night ends

Cause when you’re fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You’re gonna believe them
When you’re fifteen and your first kiss
Makes your head spin around but
In your life you’ll do things greater than dating the boy on the football team
I didn’t know it at fifteen

When all you wanted was to be wanted
Wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now

Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday but I realized some bigger dreams of mine
And Abigail gave everything she had to a boy that changed his mind
And we both cried

Cause when you’re fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You’re gonna believe them
And when you’re fifteen
Don’t forget to look before you fall
I’ve found time can heal most anything
You just might find who you’re supposed to be
I didn’t know who I was supposed to be
At fifteen

You’re very first day
Take a deep breath, girl
Take a deep breath as you walk through those doors