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Monday, July 28, 2008

SEX and the city

Me and fiance went to movie marathon last weekend. We managed to see Dark knight, Sex and the City and Hell boy 2 (not recommended, coz i think it was braggy though). Although i am a big fan of Batman, but i rather see myself liking Sex and the city much,much ,much moreee..ngeeh..

but why?





I think the story line was exciting, not because i am a women who looks this way but rather i found it really sincere and meaningful. it completes every gurls could ever dream of, let say, shoes (for my passion), friends who was there whenever needed.

And speaking of friends, i envy them in the movie. Simply because they understand and most importantly respect each other even they were in different thoughts. It almost bring me to tears, (yeah i know, i know, little mushy eh?) when Carrie Bradshaw played by SJC came to Miranda Hobbes played by Cynthia Nixon on the New years eve just to tell her that she was not alone.

And speaking of passions (read the above, my passion and weakness), i cant resists shoes. No matter how hard i tried, but i might be hating myself for this but to tell you, i bought 2 pairs of Primavera shoes. Nah. Im dead gulity.

I blamed the mega sale for this. It was it's fault. Not mine.

Friday, July 25, 2008

Not in the mood.

I had already tried my best to come up with anything to filled up to this post but i find it hard to do it. So i feel like to open my mind and heart and let us see what's in there, shall we?

This morning i was late to work, and konon2nye, tried to persuade my self to be more in mood to do my work. I open my laptop and it seems i still don't get enough of the mood so i clicked to my blog, hopefully to get the mood.

No, it is still gone. Nowhere. It is not somewhere near here. I think im stucked in here.

I once in a while blamed my self for having the high expectations on myself. It took me some time to get my feet back on the ground. And the time flies so fast and i seems to be left behind. And maybe that caused my mood to be down O.

And oh yes, last two days i had an asthma attacked and that thanks to the durian that i ate even i a very limited portions. I restricted myself and after taking those ventolin pills ( i ran out of inhaler) i finally breath up easily again, Alhamdulillah. some might hate me for this. Sorry guys.

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

DEBAT hati..

Suatu pagi di pejabat, bersama rakan sekerja ditemani nescafe panas dan meehun (walaupun mahu berdiet tapi meehun?), kami membincangkan topik DEBAT antara DSAI dan Shabery. It turned out that some of the colleagues has the same thoughts as mine. Interesting!

Rata-rata berpendapat bahawa kelogikan disebalik pihak kerajaan yang tidak pernah mahu memahami persoalan yang membelengu rakyat. Pendapat saya, mereka tahu, tapi buat-buat tidak tahu. Motifnya ada, renyah katanya. Cubalah memimpin, baru tahu. Itu kata mereka, tapi bukankah itu tanggungjawab kerajaan untuk dilaksanakan? Saya dan rakan-rakan lain bingung. Begitu sukarkah untuk memahami kosa kata rakyat? Natijahnya, mereka tidak menjawab soalan akibat ego mereka. saya mungkin di band kerana ini.

Jangan salah anggap. Saya bukan PRO kepada mana-mana. Neutral. Itu masih saya. Saya lebih selesa memerhatikan dan membuat tafsiran sendiri yang mana betul dan mana khilaf. Tetapi, sebagai rakyat Malaysia yang biasa, saya akui saya measih begitu jauh ketinggalan dalam bidang politik yang pada masa ini saya kira agak jijik dan kotor. Politics = dirty. Tetapi saya masih mahu belajar memahami. Cuma sejak kebelakangan ini, saya kira tahap kematanagn saya sudah bertambah dan hasilnya, saya tidak cepat lagi untuk terjun dalam membuat keputusan.

Luas skop perbincangan kami sehinggalah salah seorang dariapada kami membuka cerita kesukaran hidup suatu masa dulu. Katanya, dia pernah berpengalaman berjalan kaki kesekolah pagi-pagi dan baginya, itu sahaja adalah suatu kesukaran kerana pada kebiasaanya, bapa yang sering menghantar ke sekolah. Saya terkedu. Apakah standard saya di sisinya jika difikirkan balik, sepanjang hayat berjalan kaki ke sekolah. Bahagia sungguh dia. Saya masih lagi senyap. Tambahnya lagi, setiap tahun berganti baju sekolah. Saya? Ah! malu untuk berkata, namun hakikatnya, baju pengawas saya hanya sehelai dan telah dipakai sehingga tingkatan 5. Ironi sungguh saya dengannya. Tapi saya fikir, inilah dunia. Bervariasi. Dan. Bahagian masing-masing.

Ada rakan saya yang masih bingung dan seraya berkata pada saya, mengapakah nasib dan perjalanan hidup seseorang itu tampak begitu lancar dan hampir tidak menghadapi masalah (walaupun jika ada, tidak begitu serius)? Itu soalan yang pernah terlintas oleh saya pada ketika saya down. Teringat kata- kata seorang sahabat, Sabarlah, Allah telah mengadakan ukuran bagi setiap sesuatu. Dan Allahlah yang maha mengetahui dan maha berkuasa. Maka, ketenangan sering menjadi milik saya ketika berpegang pada kata-kata itu. Maka, itu juga yang saya kata kepadanya. Mata kami berkaca.


Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Empty..

Here is so empty.
Thou everyone of you are here,
To become someone who cant be seen
Awaits
Till its over,
The path that you choose,
Lead me to an empty world,
Empty as it may seems,
So broken inside and it bleeds..
Mercy I beg,
To you who can hear me,
Those little days are gone. Hushh now, let me breath..
Till the end of it, I will be..



Monday, July 14, 2008

Ayin..


To Ayin..,My dearest friend..
The one who has endured the grievousness moment with me once upon a time ago,
But always a fighter,
Hoped the days ahead may be filled of joyful cherished moments with the loved ones.
May you be in a well condition,
May you have the prosperous future,

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY AYIN!!

kawan sampai akhirat ye?



Wednesday, July 9, 2008

Saya tahu, Allah juga tahu..

Sudah agak lama juga saya tidak menulis blog. Semuanya disebabkan kekangan masa akibat daripada kesibukan bekerja. Betapa tidak, kerja menimbun-nimbun dan membukit-bukit. Im so overwork, and soooooo underpaid. Enough said.

Kejadian semalam berlaku dalam keadaan yang penuh mendebarkan. Now i have to live with it.
Ohh, saya begitu tidak mempunyai sebarang perasaan yang mendalam untuk menulis blog. Jiwa kacau, mungkin..

Seboleh-bolehnya saya mencuba bersabar dalam keadaan tenang yang skalanya hanya saya dan Allah sahaja yang tahu.

Jumpa lagi...