This is not entirely me

Masih lagi tiada mood untuk meng-upload gambar kahwin. Selagi saya tidak lagi menghantar tesis!

I was taken aback by some of the "talking behind my back" by those who think they are better in person rather than anyone else. They even doubt about my competency of having a child of my own!

Just because you talk nicely and not high in pitch, it does not mean you are pure in heart! WTF!
I admit myself, i like to curse, to swore to certain bad. bad. bad circumstances. I do. Being raised in the middle of the city and the world that need you to be competence, that would make you more aggressive and proactive i must say. But that just it. I barely hold grudge to people. I do not pretending. I hate even to be one.

I mean, only Allah knows you, right?

There some people who like to "utilized" me for their own sake. I was glad even sincere to be a helpful hand. But if they started to pissed me off, i would say "PERGI MAMPOS LA DENGAN SUME ORANG".

Do i look like i care?

eshol!

(WOO,....this is the evil side of me)

do not worry, this is not entirely me.

My favorite color is blue

Kenapa masa dalam kereta, ada baaaaanyak sangat benda yang saya nak cerita, tapi bila di depan p.c ni, kapoooff, hilang!!

Mungkin masa bersendirian, kita ada ruang untuk berfikir tentang diri sendiri. Saya masih seolahnya dihalangi sebuah batu besar di depan saya untuk update and upload about my wedding ceremony. Gambar pun ada dalam bentuk dvd, of which my poor laptop can not open it because this poor devices only has c.d player. So semuanya melambatkan kerja-kerja saya.

With my dear hubby is away from me, i am becoming mellow. I am missing him so much lately. rasa macam baru bercinta lepas kawen pulak. What a conservative i am! But this feeling is natural. It was not being induced by any one or any thing.

Saya juga dalam fasa edit2 tesis saya yang semacam tiada penghujungnya ni. Penulisan tesis ini sangat merimaskan saya. Penat kepala otak untuk berfikir tentang perbincangannya, cukup atau tidak?, About the pages, i forced myself to exaggerates a whole lot of craps out of it and etc. Urghhh bosan! i am sucks at writting! Let alone it is a scientific paper!

O ya! Has anyone heard about a new (if it is) song called "My favorite color is blue" by jade maze? Can i have it pleasee??

Ngeeee. Got to go, i want to finish what i have started!

YOU that make it real and fake not me..

There's so much craziness surrounding me
There's so much going on, it gets hard to breathe
When all my faith has gone, you bring it back to me
You make it real for me

When I'm not sure of my priorities
When I've lost site of where I'm meant to be
Like colaaaaa water washing over me
You make it real for me

And I'm running to you baby
You are the only one who saved me
That's why I've been missing you lately
'Cause you make it real for me

When my head is strong but my heart is weak
I'm full of arrogance and uncertainty
When I can't find the words you teach my heart to speak
You make it real for me yeah

And I'm running to you baby
'Cause you are the only one who'd save me
That's why I've been missing you lately
'Cause you make it real for me

Everybody's talking in words I don't understand
You got to be the only one who knows just who I am
You're shining in the distance
I hope I can make it through
Cause the only place that I want to be
Is right back home with you

I guess there's so much more I have to learn
But if you're here with me I know which way to turn
You always give me somewhere, Somewhere I can run
You make it real for me

And I'm running to you baby
'Cause you are the only one who'd save me
That's why I've been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me

You make it real for me

Saya sangat suka lagu(by James Morrison) ini. Sangat menenangkan kepala otak saya yang sering berserabut bila pulang dari kerja.

Wah, sempat pula berblog?kan banyak kerja?

Tomorrow i will be having the PTD assessment.So, sekarang saya sedang berlakon untuk berlakon esok, sambil-sambil membaca berita, menghafal recent events and act and even sports section, Malaysian Football team WTF apatah yang aku baca.

So, Till i have the mood to upload the wedding pics yeah?

p/S: Sesiapa nak tgk wayang, JANGAN tgk citer leonardo dicaprio "Body of Lies" sebab cerita tu menghina Islam macam dorang tahu je Islam tu macam mana. Aku and the gang dah tgk, bila kuar mcm nak menyumpah seranah je.WTF.