Sometimes i forget how to breath..

Salam..it has been a long time since i havent up dated my blog..so many thing had happened in my life..and it were all collided..Things undone and had happened:

1. Trip to Pangkor (Of which i have not done a blog a bout it..still waiting picture from Rahimah)..

2. And one of the torturest moment in my life..(Of which i think i wont spill it out) really2 stressed me out untill i was admitted to the nearest clinic by my collegue due to the fact that the stress affected both my physiology and phsycology. Dr said that i was too stress and gave me anti-stress pills which make me more and more sick!

3. My engagement ceremony. It was disastrous indeed i must say..am i too perfectionist? not a bit! i just blame my self for the last minute preparation.

All the pictures will be up dated soon after i collect it from respective person.

ohh..sometimes i forget how to breath..(in a proper way..)

Songs and friends

I always like good songs. No matter it is rock,pop,hip hop,jazz, ballads or whatsoever (Err..except for dangduts and hindies songs). And i kinda always relate one song that i think suit to my friends..hehehe (even without their approval on this ideas). The list are :

a)Yong: Over You-Chris Daughtery
b)Ayin: Menanti Sebuah Jawaban-Padi
c)Imah: Somewhere only we know-Keane
d)Yan: You and Your Hands-Pink
e) Me: Underneath it all-Gwen.

I love all my friends. No matter how far they are, or how things had happened between us, the laughter and happy moments, the tears that we hare together. But of course only to those who appreciate. I remember the time back then when i had the hard time in financial..me and my confidantes, ayin, had been very strong and patience to get through. I remember we used to picked terung, cili api and buah limau at MBT's farm for free of course. We have to be very thrifty at that time and we always had nasi goreng only for each and every day. I actually treasure the moment up until now..

And i remember when i cried uncontrollable in front of yong due to the difficult time in my life. i am the one hardly cries, but once i cry, it cant be stop..

I miss you my friends..i love u guys..

;)


P/s: Cant wait for tomorrow!yay!

The Runaway...

I could not wait for this coming friday.. Where me and my best buddies will escape from our boredom of work and free ourself to Pangkor..YeaYY!!!

Sandy beaches..blue sky...wait for us!!hehehehe

Photo by: Myknightandshinningarmour

There's the list has to go:

a) Transportation: Yong (Checked!)
b) Banker : Imah from Exim bank (Checked?!)
c) Yan : Sun block provider and informer (Checked!)
d) Me: Head of the contingent (Checked!) hehehehe

I really hope this getaway can release me from the stress and hopefully our friendship will be blossom by it..

P/S: Imah jangan lupa ur penalty..hehehehehehehhe

Risau..

Ya.. bak kata pepatah barat; Nothing wastes more energy than worrying. Tetapi saya tidak dapat membantu diri sendiri kerana........ Saya sangat pening memikirkan tentang:

a) Persiapan rumah untuk majlis pertunangan. Cat dinding, buang almari? mana larat nak buat sorang??? arghhhhhh tension..
b) Baju yang masih belum ditempah
c) Hantaran: What design should it be? adakah rama-rama terbang tinggi di udara atau kotak yang serba ringkas tetapi elegant?
d) Kewangan.
e) Thesis writting..(yang ni toksah ckapla..dah berkurun lama dan )

Risau...

Adakah...???

The Power of Charming..

Sebenarnya saya berasa sangat2 stress yang tak pernah saya alami sebelum ini.. saya sangat stress dengan kerja, dengan tesis dan sikap penyelia yang tidak pernah mahu memahami. saya mahu grad tahun ni juga..atas sebab-sebab tertentu..

emm..last time myknightandshinningarmour went to interview in kl..i feel glad and pray that he can get the job for our future sake..

and the best part in this week was..

I was waiting myknightandshinningarmour as he performed his solat at klcc surau (i finished mine and lelaki solat berjemaah) and as i waiting..came upon this cute guy and mind me gurls..ke keep staring at me as he stormed in to the musollah.. Why my brain came disfunction at the time? simply because he ia ANNUAR ZAIN!! hahaha

I know..i know..i once told u that i dont admire him that much since er,,,"THE INCIDENT"? But in real life he is cute and charming and somemore, he is the only artist that i myself witnessed really performed solat at exact time?..emm..Anuar..anuar..ohh anuar..teheheeeee mind me darling!!

Why he has the power of charming??
He calms me down...
hehehehe

I believed...

Saya percaya bahawa setiap prbuatan yang dilakukan pasti mendapat balasan.. sama ada dibayar oleh Allah secara "cash" di dunia atau pun di hari kemudian kelak..

Saya percaya Allah itu Maha Berkuasa atas tiap-tiap sesuatu. Dia lah yang Maha berkuasa dan Maha mengetahui.

Kekuasaan Allah ini selalu saya saksikan..In fact i see and i can feel it in every moment. Okay..1 simple thing for example..setiap pagi, jika tanpa lafaz bismillah, kereta kancil saya agak susah nak dihidupkan. Beberapa eksperimen selalu saya perhatikan. Dan ia terbukti.

Jika masuk ke dalam rumah tanpa lafaz Assalamualaikum, hati ini selalu akan berasa terganggu dan mudah nak marah pada sekalian umat manusia yang berada di dalamnya. Tetapi, jika disertai dengan lafaz assalamualaikum dan bismillah, mood ini akan menjadi ok and happy sahaja..

Dan sebelum makan, jika terlupa untuk membaca Bismillah dan doa, pasti akan berganda-ganda makan sampai tak kenyang2 perut ni..(sebab apa?sebab syaitan makan bersama)..

Saya percaya bahawa Allah terlalu sayangkan hambaNya. Saya percaya lebih banyak ujian daripadaNya, lebih sayang Dia kepada kita. Mengapa ya? sebab, dengan musibah atau masalah yang melanda inilah yang membawa kita lebih dekat padaNya. Pada siapa kita meminta pertolongan jika bukan pada Allah? Dia yang memberi, Hak Dia, Dia juga lah yang berhak untuk menariknya semula. Bukan bermaksud ingin berkhutbah, tapi ingin berkongsi rasa hati pada sahabat sekalian.

Kekuasaan Allah itu terbentang luas di mata dan di hati kita. Jika kita dekat padaNya, maka, tenanglah jiwa kita. Begitu juga sebaliknya.


Pagi tadi saya kesiangan dan kejadian ini telah berulang sebanyak dua kali dalam minggu ini. Setelah mengqada solat subuh yang terlepas, saya terus mendapatkan jejajo dan menciumnya setiap pagi. Lambat macam mana pun, saya tetap akan meluangkan masa untuk mengganggunya tidur dan mengatakan padanya bahawa saya amat-amat menyayangi dia. Dia hanya mampu menganggukkan kepala dalam keadaan mata terpejam. Hati saya berkata, wah seronok kalau dapat menjadi kanak2 semula, boleh tidur makan minum dan main sesuka hati tanpa perlu risau akan kehidupan ini..emmm

Saya bergegas ke tempat kerja dan tahu-tahu sajalah cara pemanduan ketika lambat untuk samapai ke tempat kerja yang jauhnya 30 km kan? Saya berjaya melepasi kesesakan trafik dan memecut sepantas mana kancil saya boleh pergi. Kasihan dia..saya memahami bagaimana perasaan baru bangun dari tidur, terus sahaja disuruh memecut. Hasilnya, saya telah memotong sebiji BMW dan natijahnya saya dikejar semula oleh nya.. takut juga..hehehe..

Keretaku...Kasihan dia, sudah lah tiba masa untuk dimanjakan, tapi dilengah-lengahkan pula. tak mengapalah wahai cheeikabotku (panggilan manja untuk kereta ku), akan ku bawa dikau pergi spa pada akhir bulan ini, bersabar ya?

Pada akhir-akhir ini, ada seseorang yang saya syaki berniat jahat terhadap saya(moga Allah mengampunkan dosa saya kerana bersangka jahat) selalu berbuat baik pada saya di pejabat ini. Dia menawarkan saya kerja sebagai guru tusyen sebagai sumber pendapatan sampingan, yang mana saya agak berterima kasih kerana di beri peluang tersebut. Akan tetapi, hati ini agak gusar dan risau kerana takut memikirkan adakah saya dapat menyesuaikan keadaan nanti..tapi saya membutuhkan wang. (Err..nape tetiba aku berkata indon ni??)

Tak mengapalah
saya cuba
untuk mencuba berprasangka baik terhadapnya, moga-moga dia berubah kepada keadaan yang lebih baik.

Amiinn...

Sparkling.Frosting.Bedazzling.

I feel so lazy to get up from bed this morning. Jejajo was sleeping with me last night. Sambil layan dia berborak, saya tak sedar pukul berapa we went to sleep. Pagi-pagi lagi dia dah tersenyum2..(nasib baik dia tak kencing atas katilku ini huhuhu)


On the way to work, i screamed out loud avril lavigne's songs: HOT. At the end i knew why i am not a singer. haha

ooh..forgot to tell you..me and myknightandshinningarmour went to do some shopping at Jalan TAR for the engagement stuff. I bought him songkok from DEN WAHAB and sejadah. And we did some window shopping for baju nikah,..to tell you the truth, i dont know why i am so afraid to decide what colur should i wear for the nikah ocassion? Would it white or pink or brown or purple or light green..i want it to be simple yet catches everyones attention that day..of course almost everyone would have think like i do..kan?

And THE RING..yes, i find it hillariously sparkling and frosting and bedazzling very much indeed. ok..i am not the person who knows the diamond stuff like the back of my hands, but i like it to be big and sparky and obvious. some of my friends once have had laugh at me about this,hehehe ..

I cant upload the picture (sorry guys) because myknightandshinningarmour said it will not be a surprise anymore..

huhu..have had to obey him..

;P