Etc, etc...

Fakta-fakta tak relevan semasa tension untuk ke kelas Biochemistry (Oh, kenapa saya tension? sebab student2 ni dah pandai komplen etc tentang saya and for the obvious reason of not getting paid la kan? but now since dorang dah backdated, im back on track, TAPI still macam tak paham meluat nyampah dengan student2 macam ni, boleh?):

1) Sape tengok Desperate Housewife selasa lepas? EDIE BRITT mati! wah, sungguh sedih ye kawan-kawan, saya ingat dia mampu hidup, tapi bila suara dia dah jadi narrator untuk episod tu, jadi macam, ooohh Edie dah mati. Saya sebenarnya suka lah pada watak Edie tu yang konon2 macam perempuan pelacur je kan, tapi sebenarnye dia just being herself, you know what i mean? tak macam sesetengah orang yang konon-konon berlakon baik lemah lembut tapi hati masya Allah, busuk! So, Edie Britt dah mati! Mode sedih..

2) Saya gembira sebab sempat beli t-shirt transformers @ petronas itu (Yong, sila jeles tapi takpe, nanti min carikan la kat mana-mana petronas eh?) Ohh, memang tak sabar nak tengok cerita itu di wayang ye kawan-kawan?

3) Memang tension dengan MRR2 road (Particularly @ flyover Taman Maluri/Pandan indah). Kenapa kat situ jem? sebab Engineer or whosever technically were involved are just plain stupid! Mode: tak suke wek!

4) Apa maksud Cis configuration in a molecule? huwaa aku tak ingat!

5) Bioinformatics, i know about 30% je sebab memang dah ketinggalan in technology betul2! Tahukah anda kalau kita ada sequences of DNA, kita leh tahu apa motif dia dengan gunakan software2 tertentu? protein apa yang terbentuk pon ita leh tahu. And one of the Malaysia company kan, dorang plan nak generate one database that consist DNA data of each of the Malaysian so that kala that person get sick and we can simply generate drugs or vaccines that is personal to the person. WOW kan??

6) Memang eicosapentaenoic acid adalah nama lain untuk omega 3. Ala, yang dalam telur tu?

okla, dah penat mengarut. huhu

Inside of me..NOW

People will never get enough of what they have, instead they will whine as they could and they stop and think and go on with their own life.

I am too, not being excluded.

I am really anticipating something. But seeing other got it and happy about it, i just could not hate myself more rather than muster that stupid fake smile on my face.

Why, ohhh Why,,,kenapa aku ni? (rasa nak sepak diri sendiri)

Could not i be patience a lil bit more? Why can not i wait a lil longer then?

And i really hate it when people come and say to my face, that i am a strong girl and that i can survive it no matter wtf and then they just leave me alone.

I just hate, dont you think? Like you could have care less la kan?

Stop this innerself bickering you old chap!

Tak pernah..

Inspired from my bestfriend's blog. so here it goes:

Aku tak pernah:
1) Naik kapal terbang.
2) Pergi kenduri kahwin satu family.
3) Do rebonding hair.
4) Ada beg LV. (CEH, ingat siti nurhaliza ke?)
5) Makan daging harimau, tho i wonder who would have guts to eat it anyway?
6) Kurus. Yes entire life=fat/chubby/comel je.
7) Masuk wad sebab sakit, alhamdulillah.
8) Ada Kaset siti nurhaliza
9) Main salji.
10) Bonceng motor dengan lelaki. (except dengan pak chu yang ajar aku naik motor)
11) Suka pada mak tiri aku.
12) Pergi clubbing.
13) Mandi sungai dengan boy friend, Alhamdulillah
14) Pergi solat jumaat.
15) Jalan kat sawah
16) Rasa cantik.
17) Kacau dodol
18) Jahit baju sendiri
19) Ada Make up MAC.
20) Do bungee jumping/naik roller coaster kat genting, huh, gi genting pon tak pernah..ceh.

Count your joy instead of your woes

Selalu saja saya terfikir akan seperti tajuk di atas. Dan kadang kala listnya akan terhenti pada nombor satu atau dua.

"Count your joy instead of your woes"

And yes, i can only manage to list down one or two number of them.

Arwah mak pernah berkata, dunia ni syurga buat mereka yang lupa akhiat. Saya setuju. tapi kebahagiaan yang tidak membuatkan orang lupa akhirat?

Saya tidak meminta untuk hidup mewah.Cukup kalau senang dan bebas hutang. sederhana.
Tapi sekarang, im really down.

Semalam ponteng kerja. Well, for the obvious reason, i was not being paid for what i have done for. Oi, ingat senang ke nak mengajar?Anak tekak pon leh kuar tau..

Still, ada muka-muka taik yang memang tak paham2.
Sorry for the t word.
But i am too damn tired of being pushed back and forth. WTF Whatever!

My Fall..

Maybe it is not my time yet. But i just have to admit that i am too, i mean, too giving up on my work life. I have not being paid up for nearly 2 months, and etc2..

Now, the phrase of " Overwork, underpaid" is no longer applicable in my life.

"Overwork, WITHOUT WTF paid" is much more likely to fit in.

I'm gonna quit my job, yeah, eventually.

And i feel totally such a loser right now.
Sometimes i can be so strong and i can tell myself, i can overcome this, I can face this up, i can stand this on my own feet.

But i have to put back my feet on the ground by admitting that staying "here" is just a waste of time.

Life just work differently on people. Some are being given so much bless and easiness in their way.


But some, like me, It is the other way around. Maybe some of you that is so eager to know how my life really was like, could be smiling up to your ear reading my fall this time of my life. Like, someone that could do anything just to know my private life, even you have to google down just to search for my trolley-sucks-outdoor-moments for my wedding picture. There, I said it!

And this time, I now know that who is really true friend of mine. Because, one could offer their shoulder for me to cry, one could even offer me money if i really in need, one will always ask about how am i being doing, still alive or not..

BUT, some who claimed them self true friend of mine would just pretend to care about me, or even ask me about my conditions before we switch off to their problems, and i, have to bear my damn ear to hear your so called pathetic life.

Ohh, life could be good and at the same time cruel if i can spill that to your faces, right?

Come on, just laugh ALL you need!

This is my time to fall.

But when i regain myself up, there is no way you can see me falling again. That, i assure you.

It ALL about.......

I:

1) Have been longing to have a pair of clarks/crocs shoe. I just realize a bruise on my toe after the high-heels-interview-sucks-kinda moment.

2) Do not want to work here anymore. Boss, if you want to sack me, please do so. So i can leave in peace. Peace yo!

3) Pregnant. Yes, 4 and a half months already.

4) Getting fat and fatter everyday even i dont consume that much.

5) Love my friends, Yong, Ayin, Ima, Yan, Lin, Ina.

6) Hungry at this moment. Logic?

7) Like to have cendol by the road side by now.

8) Gonna get it now.

9) Shall wait for my colleague.

Is this entry is all about me, getting cendol? erghhhhh!! tension!

Temuduga lagi

Wah! Hari yang sangat penat dan hampir2 memutuskan semangat saya nak bekerja dengan kerajaan. (Or in other words to get the new job and run for my life from my current workplace haha).

Jadi, bertolak dari rumah seawal mungkin dan memandu macam orang tak cukup tanah, saya sempat tiba ditempat kejadian pada sebelum waktu pendaftaran dan waktu itu barisan yang beratur sudah hampir ke luar tempat.

So pendek kata, ibu mengandung yang memakai high heels dan berjalan jauh ini terpaksa beratur dan berdiri selama 2 jam setengah. Ya. High endurance ya?

So finally the interview was done in a group of five people. Biasalah, interview kerajaan mesti ada sesi perbincangan. Oh, not to mention the interview sessions was conducted fully in english.

Tapi saya kasihan dengan seorang budak ni yang fresh grad dan saya rasa dia gemuruh menyebabkan dia langsung tak dapat bercakap dalam bahasa inggeris.

And on my way back after the interview, i came upon this old couple waiting for the daughter outside under the sun. They looked very lovely and charmed towards each other. I just smile and they smiled back.

Pakcik: Dah habes dah? (the interview)
Me: Dah. Sambil tersenyum
Pakcik: Ada dia orang marah kamu? Kalau ada biar pakcik marah balik. (cewah, konon2 macam dah lama kenal)
Me: Makcik and pakcik tengah tunggu anak ke? Panas ni..sian.
Makcik: Aah, tengah tunggu anak, takpelah, berkorban demi anak.. (sambil tersenyum.)

Dalam hati saya berkata, wah, baik sungguh makcik dan pakcik ni. sanggup berkorban untuk anak. Ramai mak bapak yang sanggup berkorban untuk anak.

Tapi ramai ke anak yang sanggup berkorban untuk mak dan bapa mereka?