Rising of the Black Gold...

Well..more and more disaster is coming..

The latest was the rising of the petrol price as much as 40% that is from RM 1.92 to RM2.70. And that was BULLSHIT. Enough said.

Err..i still wanna talk about though.. i mean the idea of increasing the price of the valuable "black gold" was totally ridiculous. And the idea of rebate also does not make any "F WORD" sense. I mean it was not fair to those people (like me) who has the "unsatisfying" salary AND travel far-far away from my work place to my home. Di mana KEADILAN???!!! hehehe (errr can u still smiling at this time chokin' around?)...sigh....

Lucky me that i was already filled up my tanks prior to the rising.. But then i still have to came over the the massive traffic jam yesterday caused by the "PETROL MEGA SALE"..thanks to our government for the brilliant idea to rise up the price of the petrol and super duper genius for constructing the MRR2 inefficiently hence causing us the Malaysian citizens much much more in vain.

To add up more pain in the arse, i bumped to watch one of the panel of consumer rights to speak of the issue of the rising price of the petrol and what has came out from his "F WORD" mouth was really2 annoying. What was he said? He said that this is the time for the rakyat to show their ability to manage the monthly budget and spend money "more" wisely. Ok. That was Shitty.

O.K...Maybe i am not the economist who knows the economy things like the back of my hand but still i have to voice out my unsatisfaction towards the issue. Something has to be done in order to attract more outside investment into our country to upgrade the economy.

And the salary of worker in the private sector has to be increase in order to minimize the rakyat's burden (like me). I do feel there was a lot of difference between our nowadays kerajaan and 10 years back. Ohh. now i miss the touch of the previous government...Am i being overrated?..Come on man, i just voice out my opinion and as the democratic country, i am freely can speak what ever i wanna speak, am i? Take it or leave it.

I am thinking about restructuring my way of life,..to cope with this issue. Maybe i rent a house near to my office so that i can walk. Or even by bicycle, perhaps? and cut of lunch or prepare food from home..cut down shopping. no more shoes. no more outside food galore. no more movies. Sit back and enjoy the pain at my home.

I hate my life right now. I really do. Mind me people..i have the rights.

Sorrow ...

I just got back from attending one funeral of one of the relatives that she died because of cancer in the liver. Mixed up with my own feelings, i am terribly hating my self right now and eventhough i am not supposed to feel like that. i looked back at all the sins that i have done in my life just make me feel that i am not ready to die at this age simply because i have not repenting at some of the things that i have totally regretted did it last time in my life..and there seems not much of ibadah (sunnah) that i do nowadays selain dari yang wajibla..

We can not know when we are gonna die, arent we?

Semoga roh Allahyarhamah makcik timah binti hj amin dicucuri rahmat..dan semoga diampunkan dosa2nya..amiiin...

and back to my sorrowfulness-pathetic kinda life..(actually i kinda happy with this way..err is ayat penyedap hati norazrin??)

i am again feeling a bit of disappointed, jealousy and tired of some people that keep whining at small stuff or things that they think that was all the burden in the world that they have to come across to.

A friend of mine was calling me up at one day while i was in a middle of a work just to say that she was a bit hurted by some people's thought or a comment to her. i fell like as she was spill it all up to me, i was not focusing at the issue but rather to self pity my self (i know i shouldnt done that) but yeahh, i was devastated actually. in a real life. much than her do. Why cant people like her that always gets what they want in life be thankful and bersyukur to Allah for all the blessing? that was emblazoned in my mind..

how come you can be affected by someones opinion or thoughts? i mean like me, i like to mind my own business and alhamdulillah up until now i can survive out of it.

i need a good sleep la..

Shelot's Wedding reception

Hi Kawan2..apa kabar? sihat tak semuanya? bagus...

Hari ini saya mahu mengupas topik perkahwinan kawan saya yang bernama shasila tokiran, atau nama komersialnya adalah SHELOT..Tahniah kepada dia kerana telah selamat menunaikan sebahagian sunnah Rasul..these are some of the photos:

This is me, bergambar dengan pengantin..


Saya lagi..kekoknye berada atas pelamin..(hehe takut runtuh mungkin?)

oh..All of these make me feel more nervous just to think about the BIG word. MARRIAGE. i just self conscious just to think about the perfect wedding dress, how am i gonna do to smile perfectly when the photo session, can the catering promise me that the guests feel more satisfy with the food?

Can i do marriage? can i believe that this will promise me a happy way kind of life ahead?
Ok.. i am mengada-ngada kan?

............(Bunyi cengkerik)

Three days grace..

This world will never be, what I expected.
And if I don't belong who would have guessed it?
I will not leave alone everything that I own
to make you feel like it's not too late.
It's never too late.

Even if I say "It will be all right,"
still I hear you say you want to end your life...
Now and again we try to just stay alive.
Maybe we'll turn it around,
'cause it's not too late.
It's never too late.

No one will ever see this side reflected. And if there's something wrong, who would have guessed it...?
And I have left alone everything that I own.
To make you feel like it's not too late.
It's never too late.

Even if I say "It will be all right,"
still I hear you say you want to end your life.
Now and again we try to just stay alive.
Maybe we'll turn it around,
'cause it's not too late.
It's never too late...

The world we knew won't come back.
The time we've lost can't get back.
The life we had won't be ours again.

This world will never be what I expected.
And if I don't belong.

Even if I say "It will be all right,"
Still I hear you say you want to end your life.
Now and again we try to just stay alive.
Maybe we'll turn it around
'cause it's not too late.
It's never too late.

Maybe we'll turn it all around
'cause it's not too late.
It's never too late.(It's never too late!)
It's not too late.
It's never too late.

This cool masterpiece is my fav song for the time being..if you look back the lyrics and the meaning between those lines, somehow it would reflect the life anyone of us..and i love to hear if David Cook sing this songs with his guitar..it would be niceyy..

Anyway, life has been pretty collided nowadays. while im trying harder to finish up what i have started, everything seems to push me even harder..apparently it was all regarding my thesis. After almost a year of waiting, i managed to gain my guts to tell him that i was not really satisfied the way he treat my thesis. And that was done via email though (coz it will not be spoken by me properly face to face)..

and i didnt get his reply for those 3 days back (due to the holiday)

And i was awaken by his sms telling me to send back my abstract in malay and english the next morning ( at this point, i was so at the hype of energy and very thankful coz he was willingly (so i thought he would be one) checking my thesis in a prior state)

and the next morning too, as i wanted to send my abstract, i was again awaken by the reply
"I dont like your explanation and thank you for telling me that i am not doing my job". Boleh?

Rasa nak menangis.

Why he could not see it my way? Even at least consider it? Who would have guessed it right? Muka baik, smiley all the time will treat you like........rubbish. There. i said it this time around. (im sorry for the harsh word)

Im just hoping he could understand my situation (as i trade my pride and guts just to blurt out on everything ) and have some mercy on me please.

And Yong had advised me to report to the higher authorities for this circumstances. that serious?

Moral of the story, never assumed anyone that is looking all right on the surface will be good inside out too. I happened to have experience with this kind of people. And vice versa.

P/s: To those who read my blog and happen to know who is my supervisor is, please dont expose this lil' anger to him ( for the fact that i dont mix up personal and profession all together)

Inspiron..

Last weekend was filled up with shopping session with kak bai, my beloved ex room mate cum my sister. We went to buy her a laptop at low yat Plaza at bukit bintang area..after wandering the 4th level about half day long, she managed to get herself a firm grip on decision.

It was Dell Inspiron 1520 series. It was in whitey colur baby!!! cantik giler.. it looks nice, sophisticated and giddy..hehehe

Mid-size (6.40 lb), This series 1520 features an Intel Core Duo Processor (up to 2.5 GHz) with , integrated Intel X3100 or NVIDIA GeForce Go 8400M GS/8600M GT. (Note for those who buta I.T like me, NVIDIA GeForce is for graphic design and gaming, pendek kata kalau ada benda alah ni, gambar grafik lagi cantikla..)

AND It comes in a variety of colours too..geram je..

And one of my friends has said that i have the power of charming in begging for mercy in order to get some freebies and the list goes as:

1) One laptop bag pack (it was black in colour..so..so..elegant)
2) One Dell laptop bag (yang biasa punyer)
3) One Note book lock
4) One cooling Fan Pad
5) USB Port
6) Wireless Mouse
7) 2 units of 2 Gig pen drive of Kingston Brand (one is for me, kata kak bai, upah air liur.hahahaa)
8) One woofer speaker
9) One earphone and Mic

hehehe..

And later that night i brought her to Down town cheras for some underground planning to be work in near future (also cant wait for this thing to be accomplish)..

To Dear Somebody (Respective person only my heart knows)

I feel so vulnerable right now...

I am tired and so sick of my condition right now.

I have to get some rest somewhere in my territory..

I am so vulnerable just because i am introvert and do not have a good enough interpersonal skills that can make me mingling with other.


Sometimes i feel some people will only judge me on the surface.

They do not have any idea on what i am and what i am capable of..

You know what? i dont even give a damn care about what your expectation on me cause you have O(ZERO) on me.

Ok, this is to the people who is looking down on me
1. Even u are somebody, i just wanna tell u that i am not as what u are expecting
2. I know what i am, and what i am capable of
3. I am strong and independent and i dont even crack under great damn pressure(I live by my own, drives my own car, i dont call my daddy just to get my car
serviced, ok?)
4. And YOU, will NOT bring me down. EVER AGAIN!

Ok..im through..fuhhh...

What a nite!

Last night i had a mixture of exciting dreams i must say (err..even some horror element was there too)..

I was in an army squad where my team must escape from U.S. Troop and we had (i dont even know my team members in the dreams) our face covered with black ink to camouflage ourselves from the U.S. Very enticingly, there was a scene where i was about to climb up a stairs and had to laid down because the U.S troop was behind me and it was so dark that they didnt even noticed that i was there! at the same stairs! hahaha..lawaknyer la.. and it was very exciting feeling u know..( I must say that i am rarely have a dream during my sleep time, and maybe because of this, i feel this dream is quit interesting)..

And we managed to escape..

Then suddenly out of no where, i was in the middle of the CSI site where i was totally in no more army suit, and i had to follow the suspects to reveal where she had the corps hidden. And the women is so skinny and has this dull and pale face ( err she seems so spooky and scary) and it seems that we were all alone at the crime site..

I had to bent down again and to my surprise, i finally saw the dead bodies were hanging up upon the wall and the blood was everywhere..and she was smiling mischievously towards me ..

and then we were at the police station ( to my surprise the station was at Sunway Pyramid, boleh?) and there was no one there and soon after i want to go out, the women hold my hands and said that she wants to follow me (knowing how her modus operandi, it really bothered me at that time) and i said that "no, u cant come with me, your place is here"

i said it firmly. No doubts. I was scared. Very much indeed.

and kapoof!! i woke up at 4.30 a.m..

and i feel really scared and since i was having the bad time with my fiance, i cant seems to SMS him to tell him that im scared, am i? (babes, tak machola kan?)

hahaha

What a nite!